I saw you, with your friends at the time. On July 15 '09. Initial encounter made me admire you. I think a sense of awe only temporarily attached in my heart. When I want to try to know you more closely. I was trapped by the feeling that I don't know what it's called. Guess that's weird. I feel ever had that feeling before. But, not as deep as this.
Initial meeting I'll never forget. I don't think, things and place made us closer. I like him, and like me have turned into effection. For days, months, I tried to keep all my feelings. No one knows, except God and me. All neatly hidden. In the end. I learned something, that my friend also liked, even loved. I remained silent. I intend to unify them. Everything I know about him, I share with my friends.
Now, all was revealed. My friend who I consider my sister, revealing the contents of her heart to the man who occupies aprivileged space in my heart. And that's because of my support as well until my friend dared to reveal. That night, I still can smile. But the next day, I cry and no one knows. There is a feeling not willing after all that happened that night. I first knew him, even loved him, didn't dare to do it all, I feel stupid.
Gradually, I tried to be honest with those who were dear to me (my friend and the man). I told my friend to not change her attitude to the man. I tried to stay away from the man I love. But, I have even more love. Was I stupid?? Maybe confession has changed all circumstances. I feel guilty. Because my friend is also trying to stay away. I just wish he did no have to hesitate, just leave me, if it should be!!! A meeting that I will never forget. This second, today, tomorrow, after tomorrow, onwards, I still love him.
27/Nov '10.
Initial meeting I'll never forget. I don't think, things and place made us closer. I like him, and like me have turned into effection. For days, months, I tried to keep all my feelings. No one knows, except God and me. All neatly hidden. In the end. I learned something, that my friend also liked, even loved. I remained silent. I intend to unify them. Everything I know about him, I share with my friends.
Now, all was revealed. My friend who I consider my sister, revealing the contents of her heart to the man who occupies aprivileged space in my heart. And that's because of my support as well until my friend dared to reveal. That night, I still can smile. But the next day, I cry and no one knows. There is a feeling not willing after all that happened that night. I first knew him, even loved him, didn't dare to do it all, I feel stupid.
Gradually, I tried to be honest with those who were dear to me (my friend and the man). I told my friend to not change her attitude to the man. I tried to stay away from the man I love. But, I have even more love. Was I stupid?? Maybe confession has changed all circumstances. I feel guilty. Because my friend is also trying to stay away. I just wish he did no have to hesitate, just leave me, if it should be!!! A meeting that I will never forget. This second, today, tomorrow, after tomorrow, onwards, I still love him.
27/Nov '10.
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